Overwhelmed.

Where to go with this. My mind is a whirl of thoughts. A whirlpool. Probably more of a cesspool (sp) since I really am not having the spiritually fit thoughts that I should. Or that I am at least capable of. I am sure that I am acting out of fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the new. Fear of well just plain scared of the changes. Of the way that people perceive me. Mainly I am just scared of money. Financially we should be OK. But neither of us budget well. We do good for about maybe a month then we lose track of our goals. So now Jen wants to buy a car. She has looked at Jeeps Grand Cherokees, Dodge Calibers, Saturn Vues and Subaru Outbacks. LOOKED. Like window shopped. Hasn't test drove anything. Just looked. Well she drove her first one. A the Subaru. The one that has been at the bottom of the list. Now its at the top. Not a car I like. Not an image I like. She is buying it. She has it in her head that she is getting it. She doesn't know if she can be financed. She doesn't know what the insurance would be. She hasn't haggled a price at all. She is just buying it. Its the first one she has driven!! AAGGHHH. My frustrations stem I think from we owe people money. We live paycheck to paycheck. We aren't making an effort to pay these people back. What is it going to look like when we pull in with a new vehicle. I cant get excited about this car. I am not sure where to go with it.